same old same old.

okay so yesterday i was talking about massages in beaches? well this was exactly what i meant!

maybe with more privacy.. like a room ish, cause i dont people seeing me getting some  half naked  massages.

that would be greeeeeeeeeeeeat. but like flying to islands is sooo expensive! way more than going to aussie or malaysia.-.- sigh so gay. i was just thinking who would want to go hawaii? i would but omg the active volcano man! too dangerous and risky, i wouldnt go there. i can smell ginger boiling in water right this instance. its smells sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad. ugh i hate the smell of ginger being boiled. like STRONG ginger smell. i like ginger as a flavour enhancer but not purely? i wouldnt eat ginger straight in your mouth, thats just gross. and i wouldnt drink a pure ginger tea or water. omg my cousin once made me honey and ginger drink cause i was really sick, and wooooooooow the honey wasnt even sweeet at all, aussie's honeys -.-'' what could you expect? but omg the ginger was so strong i died. i hesitated but i was forced to drink it so i did, and suffered soo badly.

Well anyways today was meh. so far, first week of the term hasnt been great. i really should focus more on studiess hm. anyways er what happened? well er i had english first and i thought i was going to go the next day cause the teacher divided the list in half and split the people. but then we had spare time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omfg. so i had to do mine lastttttttt of the day. and omggg i made a few mistakes! one of them you cant notice cause i skipped one short as sentence in the beginning :") but yeah people laughed at the part where it goes "you see an indian eating curry". hm lools are they mocking that? anyways, suaima had some stern and serious face when she looked at me so i felt at easeeee, i looked around to like EVEEEERRYONE omg not easy. towards the right, the tables were too far to the front almost near the back so i had to turn so much. but yeh. towards the end omg the teacher sits in the middle of the classroom with the video recorder and she like leans forwards with wide eyes staring at me. ugh. i hate that. so i didnt look at her face. and wow. just wow. this guy ryan he sits at the back corner and he was making and pulling silly faces at me and it made me want to start cracking up laughing but i controlled myself, but i kept like smiling WIDELY. ugh. lol suaima presented hers before mine and i was making signals about the time by pushing up my hair at the back, that was the signal.

k next i had science and it was explaining and forming our questions, and ive decided to do my issue on genetically modified food cause its easier and you can have more stuff to talk about. still need to form a question though, by friday. then i had tutor and it was ugh boring as ever. then morning teass hang with nada as party people went arting. then accounting omfg we have new seating arrangement, CURSE MY TEACHER. she moved me one desk behind with this guy. ksaj;fkdjsk suck balls. then i had maths and we did some work and wow me and nada camwhored for quite some time lewls. and then it was lunch. then it was ecoo, boring as ever, we had a reliever again cause our teacher is here and we got to do anything but we were suppose to do work but no one could be bothered and no one cared. except few goody goods ofc. im not one of them. then home time, walked with suaima.

yeah stuff at home. my sister is sickkkk, i wonder if shes going to school tomorrow. ugh lucky i wish i cannnnn!

sayonara people, oyasuminasai!
<3 sherin out.

mlehmleh

hm well.. today was asdljadf. idk what to say, its like ......mleh? LOL dont worry its just me. Idk but my mind was just blank the whole day and i just cant be bothered with anything to do with anything in this countryy loooooooooools i just want to get away and go to some city and party xoxoxoxoxox no. i want to go shopping and i want to eat so much that i wont get fat. i want to relax on the beach and get a massage done with facial treatments. something peaceful, and something i like to do; shopping. not that i EVERRRR buy ANYTHING. ugh... thats why i rather have objects than food. because i sort of get food all the time from home and i dont really care, i rather starveee and get my object! thats me.

ok im going off-topic? heh.k. today was a rather sunny yet windy day. i hate the wind!! its so cold omg. soo cooollllddd. i was practicing my speech and im really paranoid and worried about everything like seriously. everrrrythinggg in life. and i cant concentrate, i keep making mistakes. its really annoying cause i keep restarting and i keep thinking ugh im so stupid im going to faill everything, cause seriously what i want to become is sooo hard because im not a slightest bit smart. omg loooooool im so funny at times i cry cause i think im dumb. :') yey! i cry about everything but no one sees me, secretive yeh. omgomg! i have this space i like when im depressed. i go to my closet and sit in the dark small space and i just like do my own stuff and then i eventually become quiet and then i fall asleep. its like my space cause sometimes i just like to be alone and blend in with the darkness. hm anyone like this too? hm maybe not..
sooo like atm, my dad is playing some peaceful asian as musical instrument. and its reallly really nice but atm im like not so good mood and its making me depressed ugh my eyes are tearing wtf? ok whatever no one even reads this cause my english sucks balls. i should just type in chinese. but the musical instruement is nice but not NOW. its like flute. just flute and something with string in it.

do i have to go school tomorrow? i really dont want to. but i have to cause my dad doesn't allow me to waste my education. -.- even when im sick!!! he will only accept if im like in major pain or something. i want to have a major fever like i did in australia. although its like torture i dont care. i stay in bed feeling hot and cold as ever, and i barely ate and wow i lost weight. i was really happy. im like surrounded by skinny people lols i seem to be the heaviest one-.- hate ma bones ugh hate it curse u. omg once i got so angry i started punching and hitting my shoulder bones o.o thts how much i hated it LOLS. but yeh learnt my lessons. hurt like shit so i had to put cream. no one knew as usual. no one cares algooodsssssssssssssss. i shall await my peaceful island in my dreams.

k. gooodnightyo wish me luck with my speeches tmr! im presenting it. hope my asian fob accent doesnt come out.

day one.

so it was the first day back from the short holidays ugh:"( im missing it so much!!!! i woke up and ugh it seems like frecking 6am when its actually 7am. it was dark ugh. and dull. what a shit day! i hate the colour, so dull man. not cool. i had accounting and er yeh it was easy for ONCE omg. but my teacher still sucks.
then i had maths, and we were doing revisions, and aiyooooo i didnt revise for straight line graphs and the teacher gave us some hard questions. and we did parabola :"D I got it yay!
then i had tutor, gay as ever.
then i had economics, and myohmy i really hate economics! ITS SO BORING. does not interest me at all. but yay we get to muck around in class for the next few days this week i think cause the teacher is going to be away on this IBIZ thing. :"D hopefully we get some good reliever teachers not shit ones. but yeah we did nothing much and omfg everyone in our class were given three slips thing to give to the teachers for the students ugh! i hate parading in front of people's classrooms and omfg i had ALL bloody year12s! but ankita helped me out abit hehe thankssssss.
then i had english with le suaima poopies, and we were practicing our speeches, and lool we were outside timing and reading it out and all. and ugh i did and said "YOU GOT TO MAKE A STAND" to goteye when she walked pass. i died. and we both started laughing ugh stupid suaimaaah why.
then it was lunch time and we were trying to go on youtube lifestream for iara's band husbandsss and loool so cute. she was so happy ahahhahaha! we only saw like 1-2mins of the video LOL FAIL.
then it was science and we copied out notes ish and practice on report writing and crap-.- aiyo what is this!
then the pineapple lumps decided to go luna tea but WOW it was closed, what a long journey. so we decided to go bamboo cafe and it costed one dollar extra and the portion was much bigger and it was much much more tastier!!! terima kasih to da farahxoxo
but omg afterwards we were heading to BK's and we took a shortcut under the bridge and suaima went ahead and i was forced to help farah down the grassy wet hill -.- and were all screaming at each other and laughing so loud omffg!!! lol and this boy and his bro laughed at farah AHAHAHAHA good job. then after bks we saw farah's honda car and we frecking tried to chase after it and we failed. what a work out, burning all the calories earned from the kwey teow.
got home and did my exercise and all. nothing much at home. ugh have to do my homework!!! i cbb ugh.

thanks for reading my life. LOL JKS WHAT. bet you didnt even bother to read the whole thing.
okay selamat malam you all<3
SHERIN OUT. lols.

a painful goodbye

well... tomorrow is going to be the first day of term3 :"( im going to miss the holidays so much!!! i really dont want to go schoooool ughhhhhh. and especially when its raining the whole day! what a great way to start the first day! -.- well i am sooo going to miss sleeping in till like 11-12am and waking to the sound of dad or farah's phone call. and im going to miss staying at home for the whole day and watch drama/anime!!!! almost halfway through season2 of avatar! yay.

okay well today nothing much. i went to church and came back home and ate and then went to do grocery shopping in le panmure. then to pak then went home and did my stuff. in 'stuff' as in doing my speeches (OMG i actually practiced and put my cue cards on cardboard. wow the first) and watching avatar <3333 and eating steamed cake sister made, its soo good omfg. its really healthy!!! no oil or butter in there. not baked, but ssteamed :") aisanssswag. idk but wow today idk why in the world but i was thinking hmm glad to be asian. LOLOLOLOL.

well i cant remember my speech fully ugh! its so hard to learn them ffs. and i was planning to make progress on my accounting internal but noooooooooo i just went and changed abit of my information that i've gathered the other day. ... fail; i dont even know what to write. glad someone is going to give me a helping hand! oh ive finished my science homework!! yayyyy. i havent finished all the exercises for the parabolas yet :"( i shall do it later.

sigh i still cant believe that dress i wanted is gone... its really saddening. i want it so badly..:"(
ima try sleep earlier!! but omg its like almost 11pm already omg so much for early-.- i wanted to watch avatar before i sleep ugh.

okay bye party people, hope all goes well at school.
<3

i dont think i can handle it anymore

its so sad. it honestly is. im feeling so empty right now.
FFS okay here was my day: (it would explain why im so depressed)
i woke up and had porridge with fish and egg <3 yum, gotta love your asian meals. then me and sista and daddy went to slyvia park and we went to the warehouse. er well lol being a cheap asian as usual me and my sister decided to half the price for this 'buy one get one free on yellow stickered shoes' so we got this really really nice high heel and this military boots. the high heel's original price was $40 and its been marked down to $19.89!! and the military boots was $18.98 so we get the boots free. yay. i shall maybe post a picture of those beautys later. but my sister wanted this other nice lookin' high heels thats more like vintage-y style... but my dad said no to high heels ... and i said not really cause we're too young to get them since we dont weaar it often you know?
k, and she brought two deodorant for $3 rexona ones, its so cheap omg! they are usually $6-8!! and my dad brought like hair dye for his 'botak' (farah you should know it) hair and massaging oil, all on offer <33333 idk why they are having some massive sale randomly, but its benefiting us!

then dad went to paknsave and me and le sisters went around looking at clothes and nothing much. OMG the dotti dress i tried on the other day with le indians its this green colour dress and omfg i saw an XS size!!!!!! it could fit me! it was marked down to $40. ffs. if i had the money i would of brought it straight away. so i went other places then i went to valleygirl. yearning for my perfect dress i want and have been thinking of ever since. and wow. wooooooooow! GUESS FFARKING WHAT. IT WASNT FARKING THERE ANYMORE!!!! i am so depressed right now. its $40. i hope it comes back with the price of like $20. i would so get it. if its $20. omfg i was so like annoyed so i was telling my sister about my feeling... and she told me to shut up LOLOLOL. but omg its really sad. ive never wanted anything this bad before. and omggg i really want the lacey dress from supre soooooooooooooooo damn much!!!! its $48. omfg. someone give me $100 plsssss, it would be amazing if i found $100 on the floor. but then i wouldnt have the guts to spend it...-.- but anyways i am sad. then we went to paknsave and got daddy and we went to super cheap auto to find oil filters, air filters and this other thing for our honda civic car. after somewhat long time spent there we came out with nothing as we couldnt find our parts for the specific model car we have. and my oh my the maori dude who served us was rather rude he was pretty chilled but he wasnt very helpful.. then we went to mad butcher and brought pork roast shoulder or something like that. and wow the people there are so friendly! k then we went back home.

got back and got ready for badminton with le sister. and wow, havent been playing for awhile now! then meh went home and did my speech. then had radish soup noodles for dinner!! omg you got to try it, my dad makes the bessssssssssst! its like really really good. i like the beef <3 omg i really love soup noodles its so tasty and fulling! I like mine with lots of chili >:D yeap so i've finished typing my speech and all, just need to print it and cut it and learn it. i am currently trying to finish my sci homework. after that i shall make a bit of progress to my accounting internal duee next week! omg. i have to get it done as i will be busy next week studying hard in my classes . (hopefully).

oh btw sorry forgot to blog yesterday. hm what did i do? ohh i studied for maths yay and i get parabolas and all now i think :B gotta do some more studying laterrrr. i actually did EVERY questions on EVERY exercises. unlike my teacher..-.- who skips them.


SONG OF THE DAY:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWIkiI_UmeE :D i love you suju!

wenis

loool you know where the wenis is?
ahaha when i was having my dinner with my family in the circle dining table we were watching tv too, this ad came up and said "do you know where the wenis is?" and i thought they said penis ahaha and i started laughing and made an awkward as face. and my family was like they said wenis not what you're thinking, sick minded -.- yeah. LOLs.

okaoka yesterday i didnt blog but i shall talk about it cuz it was important :s about me. my health.
well i never mentioned it but i was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism when i was year 9, end of 2010. it was severe. but not REALLY severe. if so i would of had to go for sugery. but luckily i was just on medication. and wow i went to sunway hospital, where the specialist are. and my oh my to see the doctor you pay RM300, for the medication RM300 and blood test RM90, bloody expensive! yeah at the start i took two differnent types of pills. the main one is called carbimazole, where i had to take 4 tablets two times a day.. thats how bad it was. the other tablet i forgot what it was called but its red. carbimazole gives off side effects such as nausea, headache, vomiting and all within 8 weeks and wow those all happened to me... -.- it always made me lost 6kgs in few days... at first i was so happy i was losing weight but then it seem really unusual. so i was about 41kgs.
at one time i was home alone in my aunts house in malaysia, the side effect kicked it so i was feeling light headed and heavy as so i was running to get on the sofa but it was HARD and i feel on the stone floor.. and boy it hurts alot. its stone!!! omfg. so i was like lying there for like few minutes and the dog was just looking at me...-.-
yeah then came back to nz and all and they slowly reduce the dosage. and at one point the readings of my hormone thing became too low. so i had hypothyroidism at one point...so i had to take this other pill called thyroxine.
 yeah so i had to take monthly blood test so that they can observe the tsh, t3 and t4 readings. yesterday i went to see the endocrinologist again at starship (lol its for lil kids and i feel like such a poo cuz i was the only big older girl and all). okay so ive been on medication for 18 months now and they said that they normally treat patient with hyperthyroidism with medication for 2 years, if it doesnt go away then they consider a more permanent solution like surgery or taking a radioactive iodine. i dont want any of those solution:( surgery have a high risk of something going wrong like they can damage your vocal cords. and i wouldnt be able to speak properly. taking radioactive iodine kills all the hormones in the thyroid and i would have to take tyroxine all my life. -.-
i forgot to mention that ive also got graves disease through hyperthyroidism, its where the tissues in your eyes makes your eyes moore bulgy and popping out like. :( it was worst before.
i also went to have an ultrasound like last two months ago? and wow... there was so many little lumps/ circles in my gland... its not a good thing. its not severe though.
okay anyways so right now i really hope it goes away before february! pray for me<3 im currently taking carbimazole one tablet a day.

so that was my day yesterday.
today i woke up to the constant ringing from my dad's cellph!! UGH. gave it to him and i went back to sleep hehe. the whole day i stayed at home, i studied for maths yay. and then after i started watching avatar the last air bender :D finished season1.. onto season2! its really good.


SONG OF THE DAY:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cn4R8Y-hRfY <--- im loving it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqSZnZePkvU <-- introduced by farah :D

meowmeow

weell today was rather alright, the weather was nice, its was sunny but rather chilly!
so i woke up to the sound of my dad talking and getting frustrated cause he couldnt find his usb for work -.- so i had to get up (10.15am) and look for it and then wow in the end guess who found it? ME. yes me. want my autograph? ahah lol jokes. but i was the hero of the day xoxox
anyways then i went back to sleep ahaha cause i was tired. then got out of bed at 11.15 ish and vara called and told me to come over and 'study'. so had some food then sister was making waffles and i took two and brought it over to farah's, and i went on her laptop and started playing my asian 'tacky' music according to farah its tacky and asian. yeah she was trying to kill me with the butter knife while she was eating the waffles. and omg the way she eats it.... *shudders*
then suaima came and heard my music and she like loved it LOL JOKES. she started looking for the cats and picked them up in some cloth and saying it was my baby -.- idk what she was doing.

then later on er dont know what happened but i bragged and begged them to help me for speech and they wrote my conclusion and omggg it wasnt saved. wow. -.-. we didnt even study at all omggggggggg i wanted to so badly but they didnt.. aiyo.
ok then we went home and yeah i had to cook ugh -.-i wish i have some nice fancy kitchen then maybe maybe i would like cooking abit more than i do now.-.-
a really nice house with a really nice kitchen and bathroom and balcony and good view. omg. gotta hunt for a rich man. JOKES ahaha but seriously that would be nice.
well yeah now im trying to write my speech but i need my dad to proof read it ugh -__- hes busy sleeping aiyo.

my sister baked er banana cake.. its nice but banana cake isnt my favourite. i prefer like butter cake or something even though its hard out fattening ahaha. but i want to eat chocolate danish ugh, suaima please la.

okay i shall be sleeping now, ugh omg i keep sleeping late! i have to snap out of my bad habits. hopefully this doesn't happen to me when school starts :"(

byeeeeee sayonara!<3
btw, i have a doctors appt tomorrow at 10.30! its time for the doctors to finalize what they're going to do for me now. im scared. i hope i dont need to take the radioactive pill and be on medication all my life. and i dont want surgery!!!! there's a high chance where it gets screwed up and it can damage your vocal cords ok. i dont want to loose my voice :"((
i hope all goes well. pray for me! :")