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ohai guys! lately the weather is so shiiiittt its like playing around with you. its sunny in the morning and clear then nek minnut after school it gets dark and dull... and starts raining heavily! not good, not good. i hate the feeling of getting wet. you get so sticky... and you smell. LOL OMG how girly can i get? but seriously.. i can get sick easily like that so me no want that. i prefer some nice sunny warm day!
okay well school's been ok i guess but idk im so dumbb ughhhhhhhhh!
someone recommend me some good story books please so i can improve my vocab! ahaha cause my vocab sucks balls.OMG LOL today at english me and suaima were on the laptops and instead of doing work we chose to look at photos of gymnasts and omg their facials are HILARIOUS.
e.g. http://photos.pasadenastarnews.com/2012/07/30/photos-mens-gymnastics-at-the-london-2012-olympics-july-30/#4
^can they be any hotter? AHAHA omg omg seriously there's way more funnier ones if you search through. there are some hot guys there. hehehehehe not mentioning the names yet. mine mine mine.
GO NEW ZEALAND MAN. i support them for rowing alot ahhaha. malaysia only gets medals for badminton, cycling, and maybe hockey -_- other than that..... er. LOL. poor thing. thats why they need me in it gosh. AHA<3

asjfaskljf last day to do my science internal omg. and im not even done! :"( i still got alot to write about and,... only one period left so sad, so screwed! i really hope i get E, if i dont i will feel like such a failure piece of asian. i feel like eating lately... dont know why. but theres nothing to eat in my house ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i have chicken patties but i got so bored of it.. and the only food i bring this year has been like muesli bars... sigh. DIETARY YAY.

okaaay i shall do my work now people
BAZINGA. AHAH gotta love sheldon! but im serious though im going to do my work and hopefully facebook people wont disturb me!

adios amigos!<3

SONG OF THE DAY: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H7HmzwI67ec
^love this song so so so much cause its so so so so good. lol sema showed it. happy? credits goooes to you girlllll.

me and suaima in english class^ 

nanananananana OLYMPICS YEYUH.

this song was stuck in my head... cause i was watching the OLYMPICS OMG. paul mccartney was singing it and got stuck on my head now.
omgomgogmgmogmgomgogmgomg olympicssssssssss. sadly, i did not wake up at 7am to watch the full opening ceremony, im so sad :"( but they showed the opening ceremony parts on prime tv7 on freeview :) so yeah it was pretty coool i guess, and lol wtf the james bond and the queen part is sooooo fake! like when they were on the helicopter near the stadium the lights reflection was so fake. OMG I LOVE MR BEAN'S PART. AMAAZING. omg i love him. one of my all time fav actor<3 yeah i was watching it while eating my mazu or you can call it babur teringu ahaha!

well yesterday i was rather busy so i couldnt really blog. ok so um what happened? oh! lols on thursday night i slept at 9.30pm. wow. omg i cant believe iit either! its insanely abnormal of me. but i had my reasons so yeah, i also didnt have dinner that day cause some stuff. then on friday so i woke up, missed out morning hockey practice (hehe rebel as) then went school and did school stuff the usuals. (forgot what happened LOL) yes im very forgetful. then er after school me and suaima and bi went walked to llyod elsmore and we werent even late at all. then lols we vsed otahuhu (full on native indigenous people that were rather large in size) and ahaha omg we lost. but they were so ruude and omfg their coach was such a bitch! she was yelling so loud and all and she mocked the referee saying he needs to take a shower. and she mocked us. like dafaq ugly white bitch you're old as ok so gtfo.
and omg the funniest thing ever was that suaima omfg ahahahhahahaha was always being attacked by this reaaally large girl aahahahah omg it was funny. i was on the other side of the court laughing my ass off! cute. then went home and got ready to go to alyssa's house for dinner with my family. funny how we drove there and it was like only 2 mins drive.
okay so we got there and talked then ate chicken, beef casorle, asian noodle thing, rice, and pork spring rolls. OMG ITS AMAZING THE FOOD. surprisingly i had like seconds. it was sooo gooood. then desserts i had fruit salad with whip cream and holy crap its AMAZING! and i had brownies and omfffffffffffffffffffffffffffg the brownies are amazing!!! it was so amazing that its almost as good as farah's auntie's ones. its like nice and moist and not too sweet and yeah. second best brownies now. i want more ugh. then after we had some doritos and wow i love them. the pork spring rolls were frecking amazinggggg shizz. then we played dance central 2 on xbox kinect and it was so fun! i sucked at first then i started getting heaps of points. heaps of points as in millions. lols its really fun! i really want xbox kinect now... its good work out too! omg the rude boy by rihanna dance its so sexual! it was so awkward to dance hard out in front of the adults.... there was body waves crap lols. yeah then alyssa's mum let me tried crystalized ginger and i farking died. i honestly died. so i puked it out, :s everyone was laughing lols. then alyssa and aubrey and i had some books crazy moment and i borrowed some of their books<3 AND OMGGGG PERCY JACKSON. I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE NEW ONE TO COME OUT FFFFFFFF! for now i am going to restart the whole series :) true fan. hehe. its THAT good. then we talked about avatar lols then i started reading avatar the promise comic books and OMFG I FINISHED THE TWO COMIC BOOKS. i am watching for the third book to come out now! ITS SO GOOD UGH.
then we went home and yeah the end :) it was late as.

I MISS THIS DRESS OMG :"( UGH 

the other dress i really wanted. $48 -__________- ugh life . lol ignore my manly hands they are usually not like that! its cause of the shizzzz camera.

heheheheheheheh sexxxualll. its like from side view ok. i did not do it deliberately! lol abi would be like 'slut'. DONT CARE sitll nice. 

farah dp it gurlx0x0x0x0. ima put it on your wall sometime. <3 sexy as oi. keep taking photos on my phone, i dare you :)

SONG(s) OF THE DAY:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oX081Cs93CA i am currently in love with this song. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2QzrcLaNaM OMG I LOVE YOU JAY PARK. i hope i can meet him one day ugh please!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ckIGhwQtd-c OMG B2ST NEW SONG. i forgot to post it when it first came out. ugh i was waiting for it you know!!!! OMFG GIKWANG MY HUSBAND LOOKS SO GOOD I WOULD DO ANYTHING IN THE WORLD TO BE WITH HIM UGH <3

askdjaf;lkjf

ok. haii guys, i cbb talking about my day. nothing much happened, its same old same old except that i had hockey practice.
ok do you guys ever have the feelings when everyone seems to be hating and blaming you for everything? well im getting the blame. i seem to be the only one being blamed on for anythinggggggg i do or didnt do. ugh it makes me sad and depressed and rather angry. idk but its farking annoying me ugh.
& did you know that the cause of hyperthyroidism is cause of too much intake of iodine or depression? well it cant be the too much of iodine part cause i dont go crazy about seafood. so yeah yes depression.-.- after le mother no here. things havent been easy even now! i was even blame for the ... 'mati' of her. ok no one would understand wht tht means lolssss. no one ever reads whatever i blog-.- i treat this as a diary cause i cant write neatly and my hand gets sore from writing. so i cbb.
ok idc im in the mood where you just want to be alone and blend in with the darkness. thats what i want and like. ok peace out guys, im going on a starve tonight! no eating. yayay

tomorrow is our last day for hockey and i hope we win and score goals. wish our team good luck! and ugh i need to study!
bye guuuuuuuuuuuys<3 lol im saying bye to myself? kcool.

things you dont want to do!

ugh well atm im like researching for my internal about gm foood -.- and its so boring! i have to read it and all skim and scan ugh. its soo boringgggggggggg. and idk im really scared cause what i want most is to get an excellence. soooooooooo much. :(
reminder: choose subjects for next year online!!!!! ugh i gotta remember that. im taking the asian5 which consists of the usual eng and maths thennnnn comes the all three sciences ; chem, bio and physics. oh how my life would be fun as -___-. but omggggg theres so many people taking the asian 5 wanting to become a doctor or something!!!! i dont like that. not like at all. cause it means more competitionssssssssssss, like go away. please. but yeah been hearing people wanting to become a doctor. like alot omg its crazy -.- mostly asians. and omg i hope i get a good teacher and a good class. i hope my class is like quiet so i can study in peace.

okay anyways, nothing much happened today. walked in some foggy rainny day in the morning with suaima and beautiful guy. lol omg hes so like wow... so beautiful!!! if you like remove the head its like a girl's body omg. just with no boobs. i remember how me and suaima saw him one day while walking to school and he was in the car. ooohohohoho good time, we got good eyesight tehe.but boy does he walk fast! daaaaayum. long legs much?
k, so i had sci first just did some research. then accounting... meh, OMG embarrased myself in accounting today! i started coughing like non-stop.... literally non stop. so i just keept on coughing and coughing and my eyes started to tear cause sometimes you know how you just start tearing when you cough too much? yeah that happened to me... so i tried to wipe it off before people think i was crying but ugh i was still coughing so i rushed to get my water bottle... drank water.. still coughing. by that time my face is red and im feeling reaaally really hot cause of the coughing.the worst part was that the whole class is silent, listening to the teacher while she explains stuff on the whiteboard/powerpoint. UGHH and when i coughed omfg i move my body cause the coughing was really bad.. ugh it was literally like this for 10mins! :"( then i felt boogar so i took my tissue. then she came around the class and asked to go bathroom so i can cough it all out. :s
then tutor was gay.
then morining tea
then mathss was alright but omfg im so stupid ugh i felt sort of bad cause i was having negative thoughts thinking how dumb i am and all... i swear no one in my life had ever complimented me saying im smart. wait yeah some people didd actually but they dont know me well...omg you should hear my whole group mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!! they are the nicest people eva x0x0x0 the best compliment i ever get is omg sherin you're so dumb. couldnt expect more could i? loooooools! then idk i felt like crying but like sam came and started talking non stop and hes so funny omg.
then i have eco, it was alright not that great. then lunch i hanged out with ankita in the hall watching cultural night performance while my party people group all ditched me cause they were walking around school and me looking around for them. expecting them to be on the benches but noooo -_-' so faill
then i had english, and mm the stuff we're doing -___- but im actually learning!

then yeah came home and finished off watching tangled! OMG ITS THE BEST MOVIE EVER. ugh shes so pretty and omg that main guy is so hot. even though they're cartoons. romance in movies, cartoons, books and stuff is sooo like amazing. i imagine alottttt, like things happening to me. but nothing ever good in my life turns out good. idk you might not understand me.

byeeee guuuys got to get back to my internal :'( save me please!

rush

yes yes ive been rushing alot lately. i had to restart my accounting internal and ugh i had to rush as i only have a short amount of time, cause i had to do my other homework. took me awhile cause of my reaaaaaaaaaaaaally bad headache and fever and sore throat, felt terrible!! but yeah finished it! yay! but omg im supposed to do my science research and i havent started :( ugh i really need a wake up call. i need to focus, i want to get into biomed more than anything in my life.

okay well today i didnt do anything much cause i was sick. woke up at like 10.30 to pee lols then i just went back to sleep cause i was so exhausted! you know that tired feeling when you are sick? well yeah that. so i went sleep and woke up again at 12.15pm so i got up and brushed my teeth and did the usual for my face hehe. and woke my siblings up cause my dad is going to come back home from church and grocery shopping soon. dont want him to give some big lecture to my siblings and i again -.- you know that lectures you always get from your parents? that CONSTANT lectures you get about things in life. aiyo. gives me headache sometimes, but i guess they're just worried about us. Wow teenagers aren't very understanding. but i guess its part of life where we make mistakes and learn from those mistakes you know? so daddy came home and i ate abit of food then started doing my accounting internal hard out then had a breaak and ate shin noodles!!!! omg i haven't had those since last year! da horny peopleee do you remember it?? loools good times. my friends were dying of spicey-ness when they had it during farah's sleepover while i casually eat it like its candys. but seriously, they aren't spicy at ALL. btw guys, before buying your shin noodles you must be careful where its made in! there's a fake version of it and its made in china. so be careful. get the ones from the korean shop where it made in korea!!!! cause once we brought the made in china one... and obviously its fake. i hate it how those chinese people from china go out and copy other brands and make a fake version of it. and i hate it how they dont care about the quality of the food they make and all they care is about the profit made. yah okay thats like about it now ahahha.
okay then i went back to do my work then facebook got me distracted for awhile and youtube too. oh gosh those distractions are sooooooo distracting!!! lols. then yeah nothing much had dinner and stuff then went to do my work agaain. now im rushing again to do my economic homework or else i would get a lunchtime detention and im rushing to do some research on gm food for science. :"(
i really should learn to be more organised with my time! there are just too many distractions ugh!

okaaay guys i shall resume my rushinggggg-ness hehe. okay sleep tight you all goodnight!
peace out . (Y).

got this off sua's tumblr. oh dear me, i would so want to eat that!!! im  craving for some good high quality bakerys. :"( me is too poor. oh i cant wait till i be successful! 

Painful days

you know how im sick now? well yeah i couldnt sleep well at all last night! i woke up feeling really hot and sweaty, and i my neck had some sweat lols, idk why i felt soooooo damn hot! so i took of my socks ugh, but apparently i wasn't the only one so guess im not weird :D then i went back to sleep then woke up again to the pain of my sore sore sore back! cause i've bee lying straight on my back, like i didnt curve up to the left or right like i normally do cause..... things just happens once...a....moth;D
k, then ugh i slept then woke up again then slept then woke up at 10ish and holy crap my head was like spinning and it was sooo hot! and my throat hurts so much when i swallow!!! so i cried in pain to my dad, lol i was actually crying..... how cute am i?
yeah then woke up and ate noodle soup cause i was starving and i cried and yelled at my dad to cook it to me cause he wanted me to.... but then i said i was sick so i yelled, felt bad but my head was hurting alot.....sorry. then went to doctors and got medications and yeh. stuff happened with le dad and i feel so so so bad.. idk what to do. sometimes i get this feeling that everything is my fault, you know that feeling? well technically everything was my fault. ugh everything i do never makes anyone happy. im such a glue snot. get is? cause glue sticks to you forever and snots are like something disgusting and annoying? yeah that. sigh.
k, then i went home and i started sleeping on the floor sitting upright and leaning against my sister's bed while some japanese songs was playing in the background cause my sister was playing some music loooolsss, i ogtta say she's got good taste in music. not just in japanese music, but like english too! like omg shes got these band songs i loved but she didn't tell me who it was by so ugh -.- and she got other band songs like rock is well. nice nice nice. then yeaah at 3pm i started restarting my accounting internal due on Monday!!! and i feel so bad and i have to do it. and i restarted EVERYTHING, as in EVEEERRYTHING ugh, long story but so stupid. but yay im up to the part where i have to explain and compare. but i really cant be bothered. i doubt ima get it done by tonight. i also have to start researching for my science internal report on GM Food! I hope i do well. one smaller step closer to becoming a doctor :)

want to know my reasons? i dont want to become a doctor just cause of its well paying job (well sort of not really) cause i the fact that im helping others in need and seeing them get better you know? i want to see people nice and healthy. And you know how doctors are well respected and look up to? well thats what i want. to be able to be respected to and be able to look up to among others cause well i know im rather slow-minded and all... i dont really get looked upon much, everyone's reactions towards me are "oh just her". && no one looks up to me instead they look down on me, you know? Not that i mind people teasing me or mocking me about how stupid i am, but i just want to have respect and looked upon for once lols, that makes me determineeeeee. another reason is that some doctors in this world aren't great. they dont put patients first, instead they put themselves first. one example was my mother who was diagnosed with leukemia. she had to get a bone marrow transplant done but she had to be in a waiting list. like helloooooo if you really do care about her you should try get her one! Well, seriously they doctors didn't do much for my mother besides giving her chemotherapy and blood transplant and all. -.- idk just sstuff. the food could improve too! lools.&& also i enjoyyyy science-cy stuff. i really really hate economics and business crap, like its so boring! i dont mind accounting but i rather have a job something related to science. && also none of my families are really doing anything with science doctor related, so i could be thee first! :))


okay my head is hurting so much again. shouldnt be eating antibiotics yet. i hope it heeals soon before my sci report internal! :(

selamatt malam you all

i love this^ its so cuuute ehhehe love you happy and natsu! can't wait for the  newer chapters to come out omfg!

go and read fairy tail you otaku fans! its by faaaaar the best manga ever. i love it so much. its hilarious. if you do, GOOD ON YA MATE <3

contagious

omg ugh, im like sick as now! thanks to my father who started the infection and it spread through my sister than my bro then me. the only one whos not sick is my oldest sister ahaha omg. so we're like eating something hot and soup-y for dinner everyday now.
k anyways, this morning woke up was tired as ever omg, had a dream that i went to kfc and was waiting in line to buy my kfc krusher kit kat flavour, the limited edition one! and like they just hired someone new lewls. yeah then walked with suaima and we were so late so we rushed and i got really hot so i took my jumper off while suaima carried my whole luggage lols. so i had eco first and meh boring. then tutor, same old same old. then interval. then english we did like nothing at all!!!! free period yay. then science and lols my question i did on GM food is so vague.... oh wells. then lunch. then accounting, ugh boring as ever well sort of. then had hockey so i went to meet up with the party peopleee team members then er we went to Otara to the Southern Turf. and me and abi and suaima rushed to go countdown before the game starts LOL. me and abi brought oreos and suaima brought time out chocolate bar. and we had to do extra laps-.- but the game was pretty good, we had a new formation! it was a good formation indeed, with no inners. i played as left wing and hmm i picked up some tips and advices from others and used it. felt proud of myself for once. they scored in the second-half but then we scored tooo so it was a draw in the end! good game, could of done better.
next week would be the last game! ok got home and omfg i was soooooo sick and feeling terrible! sore throat omg and really bad headache!!! yeh took panadols already. hopefully i get better before science internal for next week.
i shall sleep earlier hopefully. i want to watch supernatural though ugh. we will see.
sorry i didnt really exaggerate cause my head is dyingggg :(
okaay byee sayonara you all <3
staay safe. lols. peace out.

im wide awakee

omg anyone know that song by Katy Perry? Well its been stuck on my head ever since my sister started playing it while i was in the room just doing some usual girly routines in there, (not stating what) and maan i do not like that song! its so boring and plain. but LOL i am so not wide awake! im dead and sleeeepy. its almost 12am.

okay er yeah its okay nothing much been happening cause my mind is still blank as ever, like idk. i hate this term cause theres so much more work! We have mock exams guuuys, this term. wish me luck:) anywhoooo, i had eco first and meh did some work and it was boring. then i had english and maan listening and observing people's speeches after you've done yours... its like soo boring! Im sorry for not showing any respect but i just daze of into my world of blankness or some fantasy related thing. Then tutor, boring as ever. then i had science and we learnt how reliable some websites are?? idk. i didnt do much at all. Then it was accounting and ugh i was forced to change seats. im so angry at my teacher, i really dislike her! She doesn't know what shes talking half the time. We just worked on cash budgets and all. Then i had mathss. && yeah it was alright, we're learning about tables stuff. it seems like we're the class thats way ahead...
after school was hockey practice which i didnt attend... cause in the morning i thought it was Wednesday so i came to suaima's house empty handed... oh well. so i missed it. after school while suaima was working her ass off me and farah hanged out with dinyar and firdaus. We tagged along with them to McDonalds. ahaha they make me laugh, it was really funny omg, them people omg. sometimes they do somethingg bad and omg i feel so embarrassed being with them!!! but yeah i felt guilty for eating ONE burger and a HALF. so i went home and did exercise yay! then i was in a happy hyper mood but no one else was, and i wanted to go for a jog but my usual jogging people (sister and dad) are both sick. so for dinner i had to cook porridge with pumpkin and pork cause people are sick ahahaha. me and my oldest sisters are the non-sick ones. :D yeah.

I think i have to restart on my accounting internal. its so hard to find the fuel efficiency of the cars that arent that popular.. so i prob have to change my cars. UGH! glad its not due tomorrow, but monday. phewwwwwwwwww.

Okay im so tired right now, i want to sleep.
Gooodnight you all, sleeep well<3

same old same old.

okay so yesterday i was talking about massages in beaches? well this was exactly what i meant!

maybe with more privacy.. like a room ish, cause i dont people seeing me getting some  half naked  massages.

that would be greeeeeeeeeeeeat. but like flying to islands is sooo expensive! way more than going to aussie or malaysia.-.- sigh so gay. i was just thinking who would want to go hawaii? i would but omg the active volcano man! too dangerous and risky, i wouldnt go there. i can smell ginger boiling in water right this instance. its smells sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo bad. ugh i hate the smell of ginger being boiled. like STRONG ginger smell. i like ginger as a flavour enhancer but not purely? i wouldnt eat ginger straight in your mouth, thats just gross. and i wouldnt drink a pure ginger tea or water. omg my cousin once made me honey and ginger drink cause i was really sick, and wooooooooow the honey wasnt even sweeet at all, aussie's honeys -.-'' what could you expect? but omg the ginger was so strong i died. i hesitated but i was forced to drink it so i did, and suffered soo badly.

Well anyways today was meh. so far, first week of the term hasnt been great. i really should focus more on studiess hm. anyways er what happened? well er i had english first and i thought i was going to go the next day cause the teacher divided the list in half and split the people. but then we had spare time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omfg. so i had to do mine lastttttttt of the day. and omggg i made a few mistakes! one of them you cant notice cause i skipped one short as sentence in the beginning :") but yeah people laughed at the part where it goes "you see an indian eating curry". hm lools are they mocking that? anyways, suaima had some stern and serious face when she looked at me so i felt at easeeee, i looked around to like EVEEEERRYONE omg not easy. towards the right, the tables were too far to the front almost near the back so i had to turn so much. but yeh. towards the end omg the teacher sits in the middle of the classroom with the video recorder and she like leans forwards with wide eyes staring at me. ugh. i hate that. so i didnt look at her face. and wow. just wow. this guy ryan he sits at the back corner and he was making and pulling silly faces at me and it made me want to start cracking up laughing but i controlled myself, but i kept like smiling WIDELY. ugh. lol suaima presented hers before mine and i was making signals about the time by pushing up my hair at the back, that was the signal.

k next i had science and it was explaining and forming our questions, and ive decided to do my issue on genetically modified food cause its easier and you can have more stuff to talk about. still need to form a question though, by friday. then i had tutor and it was ugh boring as ever. then morning teass hang with nada as party people went arting. then accounting omfg we have new seating arrangement, CURSE MY TEACHER. she moved me one desk behind with this guy. ksaj;fkdjsk suck balls. then i had maths and we did some work and wow me and nada camwhored for quite some time lewls. and then it was lunch. then it was ecoo, boring as ever, we had a reliever again cause our teacher is here and we got to do anything but we were suppose to do work but no one could be bothered and no one cared. except few goody goods ofc. im not one of them. then home time, walked with suaima.

yeah stuff at home. my sister is sickkkk, i wonder if shes going to school tomorrow. ugh lucky i wish i cannnnn!

sayonara people, oyasuminasai!
<3 sherin out.

mlehmleh

hm well.. today was asdljadf. idk what to say, its like ......mleh? LOL dont worry its just me. Idk but my mind was just blank the whole day and i just cant be bothered with anything to do with anything in this countryy loooooooooools i just want to get away and go to some city and party xoxoxoxoxox no. i want to go shopping and i want to eat so much that i wont get fat. i want to relax on the beach and get a massage done with facial treatments. something peaceful, and something i like to do; shopping. not that i EVERRRR buy ANYTHING. ugh... thats why i rather have objects than food. because i sort of get food all the time from home and i dont really care, i rather starveee and get my object! thats me.

ok im going off-topic? heh.k. today was a rather sunny yet windy day. i hate the wind!! its so cold omg. soo cooollllddd. i was practicing my speech and im really paranoid and worried about everything like seriously. everrrrythinggg in life. and i cant concentrate, i keep making mistakes. its really annoying cause i keep restarting and i keep thinking ugh im so stupid im going to faill everything, cause seriously what i want to become is sooo hard because im not a slightest bit smart. omg loooooool im so funny at times i cry cause i think im dumb. :') yey! i cry about everything but no one sees me, secretive yeh. omgomg! i have this space i like when im depressed. i go to my closet and sit in the dark small space and i just like do my own stuff and then i eventually become quiet and then i fall asleep. its like my space cause sometimes i just like to be alone and blend in with the darkness. hm anyone like this too? hm maybe not..
sooo like atm, my dad is playing some peaceful asian as musical instrument. and its reallly really nice but atm im like not so good mood and its making me depressed ugh my eyes are tearing wtf? ok whatever no one even reads this cause my english sucks balls. i should just type in chinese. but the musical instruement is nice but not NOW. its like flute. just flute and something with string in it.

do i have to go school tomorrow? i really dont want to. but i have to cause my dad doesn't allow me to waste my education. -.- even when im sick!!! he will only accept if im like in major pain or something. i want to have a major fever like i did in australia. although its like torture i dont care. i stay in bed feeling hot and cold as ever, and i barely ate and wow i lost weight. i was really happy. im like surrounded by skinny people lols i seem to be the heaviest one-.- hate ma bones ugh hate it curse u. omg once i got so angry i started punching and hitting my shoulder bones o.o thts how much i hated it LOLS. but yeh learnt my lessons. hurt like shit so i had to put cream. no one knew as usual. no one cares algooodsssssssssssssss. i shall await my peaceful island in my dreams.

k. gooodnightyo wish me luck with my speeches tmr! im presenting it. hope my asian fob accent doesnt come out.

day one.

so it was the first day back from the short holidays ugh:"( im missing it so much!!!! i woke up and ugh it seems like frecking 6am when its actually 7am. it was dark ugh. and dull. what a shit day! i hate the colour, so dull man. not cool. i had accounting and er yeh it was easy for ONCE omg. but my teacher still sucks.
then i had maths, and we were doing revisions, and aiyooooo i didnt revise for straight line graphs and the teacher gave us some hard questions. and we did parabola :"D I got it yay!
then i had tutor, gay as ever.
then i had economics, and myohmy i really hate economics! ITS SO BORING. does not interest me at all. but yay we get to muck around in class for the next few days this week i think cause the teacher is going to be away on this IBIZ thing. :"D hopefully we get some good reliever teachers not shit ones. but yeah we did nothing much and omfg everyone in our class were given three slips thing to give to the teachers for the students ugh! i hate parading in front of people's classrooms and omfg i had ALL bloody year12s! but ankita helped me out abit hehe thankssssss.
then i had english with le suaima poopies, and we were practicing our speeches, and lool we were outside timing and reading it out and all. and ugh i did and said "YOU GOT TO MAKE A STAND" to goteye when she walked pass. i died. and we both started laughing ugh stupid suaimaaah why.
then it was lunch time and we were trying to go on youtube lifestream for iara's band husbandsss and loool so cute. she was so happy ahahhahaha! we only saw like 1-2mins of the video LOL FAIL.
then it was science and we copied out notes ish and practice on report writing and crap-.- aiyo what is this!
then the pineapple lumps decided to go luna tea but WOW it was closed, what a long journey. so we decided to go bamboo cafe and it costed one dollar extra and the portion was much bigger and it was much much more tastier!!! terima kasih to da farahxoxo
but omg afterwards we were heading to BK's and we took a shortcut under the bridge and suaima went ahead and i was forced to help farah down the grassy wet hill -.- and were all screaming at each other and laughing so loud omffg!!! lol and this boy and his bro laughed at farah AHAHAHAHA good job. then after bks we saw farah's honda car and we frecking tried to chase after it and we failed. what a work out, burning all the calories earned from the kwey teow.
got home and did my exercise and all. nothing much at home. ugh have to do my homework!!! i cbb ugh.

thanks for reading my life. LOL JKS WHAT. bet you didnt even bother to read the whole thing.
okay selamat malam you all<3
SHERIN OUT. lols.

a painful goodbye

well... tomorrow is going to be the first day of term3 :"( im going to miss the holidays so much!!! i really dont want to go schoooool ughhhhhh. and especially when its raining the whole day! what a great way to start the first day! -.- well i am sooo going to miss sleeping in till like 11-12am and waking to the sound of dad or farah's phone call. and im going to miss staying at home for the whole day and watch drama/anime!!!! almost halfway through season2 of avatar! yay.

okay well today nothing much. i went to church and came back home and ate and then went to do grocery shopping in le panmure. then to pak then went home and did my stuff. in 'stuff' as in doing my speeches (OMG i actually practiced and put my cue cards on cardboard. wow the first) and watching avatar <3333 and eating steamed cake sister made, its soo good omfg. its really healthy!!! no oil or butter in there. not baked, but ssteamed :") aisanssswag. idk but wow today idk why in the world but i was thinking hmm glad to be asian. LOLOLOLOL.

well i cant remember my speech fully ugh! its so hard to learn them ffs. and i was planning to make progress on my accounting internal but noooooooooo i just went and changed abit of my information that i've gathered the other day. ... fail; i dont even know what to write. glad someone is going to give me a helping hand! oh ive finished my science homework!! yayyyy. i havent finished all the exercises for the parabolas yet :"( i shall do it later.

sigh i still cant believe that dress i wanted is gone... its really saddening. i want it so badly..:"(
ima try sleep earlier!! but omg its like almost 11pm already omg so much for early-.- i wanted to watch avatar before i sleep ugh.

okay bye party people, hope all goes well at school.
<3

i dont think i can handle it anymore

its so sad. it honestly is. im feeling so empty right now.
FFS okay here was my day: (it would explain why im so depressed)
i woke up and had porridge with fish and egg <3 yum, gotta love your asian meals. then me and sista and daddy went to slyvia park and we went to the warehouse. er well lol being a cheap asian as usual me and my sister decided to half the price for this 'buy one get one free on yellow stickered shoes' so we got this really really nice high heel and this military boots. the high heel's original price was $40 and its been marked down to $19.89!! and the military boots was $18.98 so we get the boots free. yay. i shall maybe post a picture of those beautys later. but my sister wanted this other nice lookin' high heels thats more like vintage-y style... but my dad said no to high heels ... and i said not really cause we're too young to get them since we dont weaar it often you know?
k, and she brought two deodorant for $3 rexona ones, its so cheap omg! they are usually $6-8!! and my dad brought like hair dye for his 'botak' (farah you should know it) hair and massaging oil, all on offer <33333 idk why they are having some massive sale randomly, but its benefiting us!

then dad went to paknsave and me and le sisters went around looking at clothes and nothing much. OMG the dotti dress i tried on the other day with le indians its this green colour dress and omfg i saw an XS size!!!!!! it could fit me! it was marked down to $40. ffs. if i had the money i would of brought it straight away. so i went other places then i went to valleygirl. yearning for my perfect dress i want and have been thinking of ever since. and wow. wooooooooow! GUESS FFARKING WHAT. IT WASNT FARKING THERE ANYMORE!!!! i am so depressed right now. its $40. i hope it comes back with the price of like $20. i would so get it. if its $20. omfg i was so like annoyed so i was telling my sister about my feeling... and she told me to shut up LOLOLOL. but omg its really sad. ive never wanted anything this bad before. and omggg i really want the lacey dress from supre soooooooooooooooo damn much!!!! its $48. omfg. someone give me $100 plsssss, it would be amazing if i found $100 on the floor. but then i wouldnt have the guts to spend it...-.- but anyways i am sad. then we went to paknsave and got daddy and we went to super cheap auto to find oil filters, air filters and this other thing for our honda civic car. after somewhat long time spent there we came out with nothing as we couldnt find our parts for the specific model car we have. and my oh my the maori dude who served us was rather rude he was pretty chilled but he wasnt very helpful.. then we went to mad butcher and brought pork roast shoulder or something like that. and wow the people there are so friendly! k then we went back home.

got back and got ready for badminton with le sister. and wow, havent been playing for awhile now! then meh went home and did my speech. then had radish soup noodles for dinner!! omg you got to try it, my dad makes the bessssssssssst! its like really really good. i like the beef <3 omg i really love soup noodles its so tasty and fulling! I like mine with lots of chili >:D yeap so i've finished typing my speech and all, just need to print it and cut it and learn it. i am currently trying to finish my sci homework. after that i shall make a bit of progress to my accounting internal duee next week! omg. i have to get it done as i will be busy next week studying hard in my classes . (hopefully).

oh btw sorry forgot to blog yesterday. hm what did i do? ohh i studied for maths yay and i get parabolas and all now i think :B gotta do some more studying laterrrr. i actually did EVERY questions on EVERY exercises. unlike my teacher..-.- who skips them.


SONG OF THE DAY:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWIkiI_UmeE :D i love you suju!

wenis

loool you know where the wenis is?
ahaha when i was having my dinner with my family in the circle dining table we were watching tv too, this ad came up and said "do you know where the wenis is?" and i thought they said penis ahaha and i started laughing and made an awkward as face. and my family was like they said wenis not what you're thinking, sick minded -.- yeah. LOLs.

okaoka yesterday i didnt blog but i shall talk about it cuz it was important :s about me. my health.
well i never mentioned it but i was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism when i was year 9, end of 2010. it was severe. but not REALLY severe. if so i would of had to go for sugery. but luckily i was just on medication. and wow i went to sunway hospital, where the specialist are. and my oh my to see the doctor you pay RM300, for the medication RM300 and blood test RM90, bloody expensive! yeah at the start i took two differnent types of pills. the main one is called carbimazole, where i had to take 4 tablets two times a day.. thats how bad it was. the other tablet i forgot what it was called but its red. carbimazole gives off side effects such as nausea, headache, vomiting and all within 8 weeks and wow those all happened to me... -.- it always made me lost 6kgs in few days... at first i was so happy i was losing weight but then it seem really unusual. so i was about 41kgs.
at one time i was home alone in my aunts house in malaysia, the side effect kicked it so i was feeling light headed and heavy as so i was running to get on the sofa but it was HARD and i feel on the stone floor.. and boy it hurts alot. its stone!!! omfg. so i was like lying there for like few minutes and the dog was just looking at me...-.-
yeah then came back to nz and all and they slowly reduce the dosage. and at one point the readings of my hormone thing became too low. so i had hypothyroidism at one point...so i had to take this other pill called thyroxine.
 yeah so i had to take monthly blood test so that they can observe the tsh, t3 and t4 readings. yesterday i went to see the endocrinologist again at starship (lol its for lil kids and i feel like such a poo cuz i was the only big older girl and all). okay so ive been on medication for 18 months now and they said that they normally treat patient with hyperthyroidism with medication for 2 years, if it doesnt go away then they consider a more permanent solution like surgery or taking a radioactive iodine. i dont want any of those solution:( surgery have a high risk of something going wrong like they can damage your vocal cords. and i wouldnt be able to speak properly. taking radioactive iodine kills all the hormones in the thyroid and i would have to take tyroxine all my life. -.-
i forgot to mention that ive also got graves disease through hyperthyroidism, its where the tissues in your eyes makes your eyes moore bulgy and popping out like. :( it was worst before.
i also went to have an ultrasound like last two months ago? and wow... there was so many little lumps/ circles in my gland... its not a good thing. its not severe though.
okay anyways so right now i really hope it goes away before february! pray for me<3 im currently taking carbimazole one tablet a day.

so that was my day yesterday.
today i woke up to the constant ringing from my dad's cellph!! UGH. gave it to him and i went back to sleep hehe. the whole day i stayed at home, i studied for maths yay. and then after i started watching avatar the last air bender :D finished season1.. onto season2! its really good.


SONG OF THE DAY:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cn4R8Y-hRfY <--- im loving it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WqSZnZePkvU <-- introduced by farah :D

meowmeow

weell today was rather alright, the weather was nice, its was sunny but rather chilly!
so i woke up to the sound of my dad talking and getting frustrated cause he couldnt find his usb for work -.- so i had to get up (10.15am) and look for it and then wow in the end guess who found it? ME. yes me. want my autograph? ahah lol jokes. but i was the hero of the day xoxox
anyways then i went back to sleep ahaha cause i was tired. then got out of bed at 11.15 ish and vara called and told me to come over and 'study'. so had some food then sister was making waffles and i took two and brought it over to farah's, and i went on her laptop and started playing my asian 'tacky' music according to farah its tacky and asian. yeah she was trying to kill me with the butter knife while she was eating the waffles. and omg the way she eats it.... *shudders*
then suaima came and heard my music and she like loved it LOL JOKES. she started looking for the cats and picked them up in some cloth and saying it was my baby -.- idk what she was doing.

then later on er dont know what happened but i bragged and begged them to help me for speech and they wrote my conclusion and omggg it wasnt saved. wow. -.-. we didnt even study at all omggggggggg i wanted to so badly but they didnt.. aiyo.
ok then we went home and yeah i had to cook ugh -.-i wish i have some nice fancy kitchen then maybe maybe i would like cooking abit more than i do now.-.-
a really nice house with a really nice kitchen and bathroom and balcony and good view. omg. gotta hunt for a rich man. JOKES ahaha but seriously that would be nice.
well yeah now im trying to write my speech but i need my dad to proof read it ugh -__- hes busy sleeping aiyo.

my sister baked er banana cake.. its nice but banana cake isnt my favourite. i prefer like butter cake or something even though its hard out fattening ahaha. but i want to eat chocolate danish ugh, suaima please la.

okay i shall be sleeping now, ugh omg i keep sleeping late! i have to snap out of my bad habits. hopefully this doesn't happen to me when school starts :"(

byeeeeee sayonara!<3
btw, i have a doctors appt tomorrow at 10.30! its time for the doctors to finalize what they're going to do for me now. im scared. i hope i dont need to take the radioactive pill and be on medication all my life. and i dont want surgery!!!! there's a high chance where it gets screwed up and it can damage your vocal cords ok. i dont want to loose my voice :"((
i hope all goes well. pray for me! :")

the orphan

well woke up and i was like quite tireddd as usual. woke up at 11am, and got up and yeahh had noodles soup yummy! then i had mazu lools i had like 4 bowls of it today! omg i had so much i swear i ate the whole entire pot ....:s then er at 2pm (lol 2pm.. get it cause its the kpop band <3) two indian intruders came and mocked me for my hobo home clothes so i wore my $5 long sleeve from cotton on to make it look less hobo. then we tricked her into thinking that we were going to watch this movie called "The Change" ahahaha and we were actually watching this weird movie called "The Orphan". it was alright, it wasnt scary at all! it was about like mass murderer and killing and like thriller. what i meant by horror is like the movies called "The Grudge" and "The Ring" those are scary as. Watch the japanese version its way more scarier and you would die.

then omgggggggggggggggggggggggggg farah saw something of mine that is so askdf;asdjf so i started beating her up. then we were leaning on each other and webcam ourselves watching the movie in the first half an hour i think. loool. then farah tried mazu! :D she likes it ehehehehe. then we ate suaima's chocolate swiss roll and omg man its amazing seriously. its so much better than the supermarket's ones. pak n save ones taste bad. i hate their bakery. omg im craving for some caramel fudge. suaima! my list of things you need to bake . use that. :") i want danish too<3

erm then stuff then they went home and i just tidied up the place and did my exercise and yeahh, watching transformers while typing this. hehe. megan fox is really pretty. what a shame that she was fired for the third one. but i like jessica alba too :")

i still have alot of homework to do sadly.. eng (speeches), accounting (internal), maths (study graphs), science (do the research and the other issue thing).
omg i keep saying i woulddd but i end up not doing it. ugh but i did study abit for maths :D

okokok bye party animals! not looking forward to school ugh. ima miss my sleeping in routines.
heres some photos from photobooth from yesterday.

with suaima broccoli 

suaima's new fb dp xoxo

heavy chunk

eataressse ahHhahahaha

abnormal growth

with channing tattumm 

lol 

indian growth

two dancing girls in the background

bug in middle

suaima with rabbit teeth