Joy-killer

WARNING: Paragraph below is me ranting. I warned you.

Don't you just hate it when you've plan to do something from ages ago and your parents killed the joy by giving you a 'no.' ?! It's so annoying it makes me go insane!
I have a constricted life... Would be nice to be free from it. I want a social life not some 'study, loser' life being trapped in my house and being forced to study. Yeah, my dad wants me to study for this whole week. I've gotten and okay/good results, cleaned my room, throw away my junk and studied. What do i get?
"No. If you've studied go study some more."
-MINDFUCK-
How asian could he get. I seriously don't know. Well I was planning to hang out with friends from other schools and planned what we were going to do, guess it's just a dream. I see everyone hanging out and chilling with their friends everyday. Then you see me just dreaming at home. Not the life you'll want to be living in -__-.

*sorry for the rant.

Okay what have I been up to today? NOTHING JUST STUDYING IN MY ROOM. -points gun at myself-
Got up and made fried noodles with sambal, eggs and bean sproats with my dad and sister. Then ate and studied, did problem solving questions from the text book. Went out. Came back. Went out for a jog and ate dinner. After dinner played COD. I think I'm going to play that tomorrow afternoon. I am not studying, I need a break.

Well tomorrow's weather is going to be good according to metservice and my dad. Ohmygoodness -_-
Wouldn't it be fun living/flating with mates or by yourself? That seems nice.. freedom! That would be me in year13 and maybe uni too. I am almost 16 (1 month and 28 days) not a kid anymore, why won't he understand :"( Things would be so much easier if my mum was around. Life would be great, but no.

ok i shall stop being a depressed child and stop ranting. Sorry. I did warned you.

Song of the Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3ULhmadHkg <- Catchy song, but weird video!

second week

Ohmy haven't updated for quite a while now, been a bit forgetful and busy lately! Gomennasai!

So my first week haven't been that all 'productive'... Been busy cleaning and throwing away my useless junk stuff :S LOADS. And um dropped by at people's. My weekend was pretty insane, fun and crazy. I stayed up the whole night and slept in the morning till the afternoon. Got moody tehe.

This week I'm going to try and study (making a bit of progress :B) because I am forced to by my dad. I am currently studying for maths and doing the basics at the moment with straight line graphs. Cause the test paper of "Tables, Graphs and Equations" I didn't do quite well on it, although I did pass but not a good pass.

The weather for this holidays hasn't been the best... last week was insanely windy and fewly odd showers :( This week, I'm hoping for a nice warm sunny day pleaseee! Today was pretty alright till it got cloudy... Okay why am I talking about the weather?! lololol.

Might go city with my sister someday yay! (Hopefully my dad allows -___-) Today I went on a short outing with my sister to fci and our primary school <3 Brings back SO MANY MEMORIES! We chilled, looked at places and played on the playground. There's been quite a lot of changes! Whenever my year leaves a certain school they have newer equipment/rooms/features added... Why?!
Yeah so that was pretty fun and relaxing. I was also watching my sister play Call of Duty : Modern Walfare, I think I'm going to start playing it. I love shooting games tehehe. Oh my sister made waffles too <3 Yum yum, I love waffles. Nothing fancy added though, just with maple syrup <3

Song of the Day:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AbPED9bisSc <- Lol... sorry i like this song...... :s its so catchy and nice tehehehe <3

Yay so its completely full now <3 I need another jar! Aha my four collection of snow globes! The maths book is proof, I've been studying for abit hehe

On & Off

Lol so Suaima linked me this from facebook and it reflects on me alot. EXCEPT I don't take diet pills! Does that even help you slim down?:O!
I'm always jealous of my sister... Always having to hear my family and friends compliment sister saying;
    - "Wow you've grown alot, now you look like your mum/dad!"
    - "Woah, so pretty la! So skinny!"
etc. there's more. And what do I get?
    - " Woah, grown alot now, getting so fat already!"
    - "Wow do some exercise and you can lose some weight"
    - "Wow you looks so different, don't look like anyone from your family"
    - "Wow look at your sister so skinny"
I'm always constantly compared to her... It's true, she's skinnier (BY FAR) and prettier. It's also true, I look nothing like my mother, father or even my siblings. AM I ADOPTED? *GASP* lol jokes. People also like my sister better in personality and looks.
I try a lot to get into a 'good shape', exercising and cutting down on what I eat. Still no luck.. however my sister doesn't try at all. She eats as much as she wants, doesn't exercise and she's in good shape. How would you feel? Pretty stink right? Don't get me wrong, I do like my sister a lot, although sometimes we have our disagreements.
My sister also have better taste in fashion than me, which is true (LOL). She know's how to do all sorts of braids (i can't do anything) wears and knows how to put make-up (I don't). All sorts of clothing she tries on suits her (not me). I have really broad shoulders, wide hips and just larger in size.

Sighhhhh I hope they'll stop being bias and not compare me to my sister.. it really does hurt....
It is quite funny how people think I'm the oldest among my sisters... Do I look that old? D': EVERRRYTIME I TELL YOU. They cover up going "Oh sorry it's just cause you're taller that's all."
-__- ok. thats cool.

Okk i shall get ready for outing.

Song of the Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XleOkGsYgO8 <- jamming to this. still love them.

I'm going to do that turn on and turn off thing hehee, don't want to do it on fb cause it would be awkward when I get 0 likes.

Turn On: Guys with sense of humour hehe
Turn Off: Bad odor.

1 week gone.

I LAUGHED SO HARD. I love my big bang theory <3

So what have I been up to this first week of holidays? Mm, nothing much. The weather was pretty bad, it was really windy and looks like its going to pour down with rain. Sigh.
CLEANING. Sums up my first week of holidays. My bedroom and table is like clean and cleared! Got rid of ALOT of junk. Its uprising to see what you have and kept from when you're little! I found so many drawings ... of .... stuff that I drew when I was younger. Its hilarious I tell you. Maybe i'll take a photo and show you guys one day. Glad I've improved. Still cant paint though.... :s only sketching. sigh.

Anyways today went to botany while my dad goes to the clinic. Roamed around with my sister and tried on some clothing in dotti. Nice dresses. LOL some were just.... too big in some particular area. AHAHAHAHAHAHHA. ok. and there's this nice high waisted shorts i like, but boooooooooooy $50.
I'll just go valleygirl and hopefully my shorts is still there <3 Hmm, oh abi talevera, if you're reading this I saw Book Four of the mortal instruments series. I was going to buy them for ya but i think you already have it?
Then dad came to pick us up and we did some asian grocery shopping. Went home and chilled. Then started tidying some stuff in our garage. MAN, anyone want some toys? We have plenty...
I have alot of soft toys too, some are new...  all in wrappers. I am such a kid.. Anyone want barbie dolls? looool, I used to play with those with my sister and my family friend, min lee :3 We even made clothes for them ... and made outline of the houses...

Ok anyways. Nothing much. Here I am, getting back to my old habit of reading manga... :s Haven't read in agesssss. Reaing "Kimi ni Todoke". Man, I can be really asian sometimes -.-

Song of the Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gPDcwjJ8pLg <- Used to be so obsessed with this song, still am.

Next step

Okay I am excited and really scared for 23 October! Why? Because I got called from Farmers about the job I applied for! YAAAAAAAAAAAY I'm happy as. Good thing i was awake before they called me or else they would of heard my morning voice.
So i have to go there for an assessment/interview on the 23 Oct 4-7pm. Suaima got called too so we will be leaving school early that day, hehe! LOL funny thing is that we both have English last period that day... it must be fate. ;)

Anyways I'm supposed to go out to luna tea with pineapple lumps but ugh.....;( I was changed and all... and le daddy was like "no just stay at home cause the weather is so bad." I replied "But its so boring staying at home, there's nothing to do" Then he said "What? Just go read a book and do some studying".
ASIAN DAD. But yeah the weather is pretty gay cause its really windy but idc ;( I want to goooo eat...! I haven't even eaten anything.. and its like 1.28pm right now.. Oh only drank milo milk. Sigh.. why oh why.

I hope the assessment thing go well, and aw me and suaima working together! Perfume department would be great. Makeup too but doubt it cause you'll need experience, and i dont even know how to put on make up AHAHA i would make my clients look like clowns :3
OH homewares is pretty good, my dad would be happy cause then he'll get discounts so he can buy new woks. Hm how asian can he get? Toys department is alright! Furniture... omhy so boring. I think i'll just fall asleep on the bed display. AHAHA.

I can't wait hehe. I hope me and suaima get it.
So today i'll be stuck at home doing, nothing. Probably have to continue cleaning, save me.
Wow my dad said its going to rain and the sun is out, but with heavy blast of wind.. -__-

Mm, i really do need to study though. Especially for maths and accounting.

Yesterday night, well technically early early in the morning as in 12-1am ish my brother showed me this video  during an engineering exam in AU. Watch it, its hilarious.
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lyHQLyZUuM <-- read the lyrics! AHA and look at some of the asians still doing the exam. Even the lecturer is going along with it towards the end!

Dreamss

Okay its normal to have unusual dreams righttt? Lol i had the weirdest dream ever.. i think im hoping too much ahahahaha. Well lets sum it up. Two guys loving me and they're trying to win me over by sword fighting (idk). One of them goes psycho and gets aggressive. The one that gets aggressive lost. Then happily ever after with the other. Pretty intense dream during the death match cause i was the runaway person HAHAHAHAHA. It's similar to the manga I've read twice called Crazy Girl Shin Bia. Its pretty good, if you're the type that like romance and action manga AHAHAHAHA.

Ok enough of me being retardedly weird. :s
Well got up and did usual routines. Cleaned up abit and went over to farah's to chill and give her my childish books to give to her little cousins. There was a barbie secret diary with keys, christmas activity book, friends forever story book, starz story book and beauty from the beauty and the beast diary book. Man, i was such a girl-y typical child....I was obsessed with crop tops.. that showed your belly button and short skirts..... + dresses. wow.
Kk then we chilled in her crib and ordered creamy chicken pizza from pakuranga pizza. Suaima started making her oown version of cigars. Except healthier lol with tea.-.- It looks .... lol bleh. I do not like the burning smell of paperrr well any burning smell hahaha cool as suaima cool as. Me being innocent went through farah's fridge and starting eating pandan buns and made green tea for myself LOL. :'D Those were nice, haven't had those in yeeeeeeeeeeeears.

Lol then chilled and talked about life, how grandma-tic of us! Went to dairy and they got their lemon lime bitters. Went home and exercised. lol. I want to go for a jog tomorrow, it better not be windy!:(

Does anyone want to buy my twilight saga. Idk what to do with it anymore -.- still need to make $100... for something.

Song of the Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=acvIVA9-FMQ <- you may go "that's old" but idc its a nice songggggggg :3

aching bodies

Why hello there!
So today is my parent's 21 wedding anniversary! Yeah it was a bitter sweet day. In the morning I woke up early but just pretended to sleep cause I just didn't want to like think about stuff when I get up, but that didn't work cause I thought about random stuff. I couldn't sleeep. LOL does anyone do a little cry when you're in bed thinking about things? AHHAHAHAHA. ohmy.

I eventually got up and did the usual. Then my family except my bro (cause he went to uni) decided to go sylvia park to:
1) Buy flowers for le mother
2) Stitching for dad's surgery thing
3) Cancel my westpac acc
4) Look around (window shopping)

Mm. There weren't nice looking flowers around.. idk we didn't end up buying them :((( Should of gone to my admirer mother's flower shop in highland park AHAHAHAHAHAHA. Yeh dad went for re-stitching for the minor surgery he had. Yeap cancelled westpac lol got served from the same westernized indian dude that helped me opened that account last year, what a coincidence.
Mmm and went around sylvia park with le two sisters. Brought some books from typo! It was so nice, its like new! I got this book with Effie tower cover, and this other book with some... stuff. It was only $2 each. Cheap stuff.
Ye and I got so tempted to buy this nice looking shorts from ValleyGirl :S It's really nice, its not like short shorts but yeah. Might get itttttt later if its still there :s

Yeh came home and cleaned up my bedroom.. :s man i have a lot of junk. You'll be amazed to see how much I've thrown away. I even needed a big big box to fill my junk in.

Song of the Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-7yw8pet4o <- My mum's favorite christian song. lol. its nice. and asian. :D

p.s. i found out something really saddening today. its for real now... my family and i are moving to aussie like end of next year? But im staying for year13 BY MYSELF ... AHA my dad says i need to be a homestay -_____________________- But after college.. going uni aussie...
I might of said that NZ was boring.. but aw man im going to miss it alottttttttttttt. Thinking about it makes me sad. What if i dont have friends there, ohmygoodness. I am not good with new people at all.