health issuesssss:(

HAII.

two or three weeks ago, I went to doctors appointment! It was the decision day for the treatment of my hyperthyroidism and graves disease in which I was diagnosed with it for two years now. But I've decided to keep taking same dosage of the same pills I've been taking and hoping and praying hard that it will resolve one day.
Things I've found out about it is that the pills that I'm taking have a slight potential risk in getting liver cancer. I'm really concerned hearing the word cancer. The other thing is that my graves disease can be passed down to my babies so I would have to consult and ensure my doctor or whatever knows about it before hand.
By the end of next year I've also decided to get a permanent solution to my hyperthyroidism. Either surgery (which is not recommended) or intake of a small tablet of radioactive iodine.. I really do not wish to take any but they can't just keep me on the same pills.

Radioactive iodine may sound safe but it kills every single thing in my thyroid gland, hence I would have to take this pill call thyroxine for the rest of my life as a replacement of thyroid hormones needed for human daily functions. :/ They have to kill everything to ensure that there won't be any slight risk of getting thyroid cancer. Thinking about it makes me sad.

K, anyways other than that what else?
I brought my ball dress from this shop but it's not a specialized ball shop so they don't do the service of checking if other people have brought that dress from the same school as you. So I have a risk of someone with the same dress as I'm wearing. I'm so scared. It would be so embarrassing and I would cry so hard if someone did. But before that I found the most beautiful dress ever in town! It's royal blue with nice designed jeweled on the top. Its just so amazing. The price of it was $500 and obviously my dad didn't allow :(

Photos later!
I also did some researched and with my fashionista's taste (Suaima) we both decided and booked this lady to do our makeup for us (manhor too). However the two Indians getting hair elsewhere well i'm getting my hair done with this lady.

Ye, so I think i screwed up my biology internal so I have to rush to fix it up ugh :( My teacher is horrible horrible hooorrrible. Done my physics internal last week and chemistry test and English test too. Doing my internal for English at the moment.. ugh. 

Song of the Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U41KPUfOSFk <-- I love this song like crazy <33

P.S Today evening somethings happened HAHA so funny omg. Farah's ... and Suaima's......... cutiex0x0x0x0x0

Online shopppinn''

Hello hello peace to the world.
Okay wow what have I been up to? Well basically school. It's alright my classes. I just wish that sometimes I can just go and make new friends but it's rather difficult.. not an easy thing to do if you're someone that's pretty shy and paranoid all the time (me).
There are some certain people I would like to make friends with without trying to be an annoying bug to them so oh well. :/ there goes my social life.

Anywho I shall tell you who I hang with in my classes: On a monday I have Suaima, Katrina, and Irada for chemistry. Does the teacher count? Oh troy. Then I have maths who I sit next to Olivia and Abi constantly turning around to talk to us cool people (y). & I sometimes talk to Naomi and Azure and Usama. Tutor is gay cause it's stupid. Then interval with da hornyz. In physics I sit with Hanami and sometimes talk to some other people. Oh troy. Then biology with Abi, Suvaana and Talina. Sometimes talk to people in front of us; Jimmy (real asian kid), Josh (nice hair), An Lun (Thanks for putting up with our lazyness) and Denrick (thanks for homework answers when needed). After would be lunch with da hornyz. Then English with Abi, Ariel and Suvaana! And a few other friends.

Yeh I'm like surrounded by friends that are female in my classes. Its okay. I assure you I won't swing in the wrong direction!

Physics is driving me insane... And the practical internal is apparently next week. Yes I'm panicking as I do not understand. Stupid teacher. Maths practice test is this Thursday and I am scared. Must practice! I also got some stupid homework from work. It's like 12 week training planner damiit.

This certain individual is getting to me. It's really annoying and pisses me off ALOT. Makes me feel really worthless and just want to tear. Although that person may not be significant in my life nor 'it's' but still, I hate the feeling of being treated in a bad way and looked in a bad way. Makes me feel so very sad. :(

Hm other than that its mainly school stuff. Ball is also coming soon and I really want to go but boy am I scared of my dad saying no... :/

OH! Yesterday my teal maxi skirt came! From Suaima hahahahahhaahahaha. This is it:

messy room...

My first ever thing I brought online. :') JUST touching the ground sadly ugh :'(

Song of the day:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxxO7p3HvhI <-- I swear Cars have the best soundtracks <3

Massage

Yes. I need that. Someone massage me please.
I am so exhausted. Always been ever since school started. Trying to study and listen hard in class and having to work every Friday and Saturday. I'm just so very tired. I even took a nap of 3+ hours last evening! Had the best laugh last night from searching up the pineapple lumps names with Suaima omfg. And found a really really really funny old as blog of Farah's and Suaima's.

So I haven't been blogging much soo, first week of school was like rather horrible, can't really remember anything significant that week. Second week which was last week um... oh seema arrived last week yaya.

Last week um.... Wednesday? Omg I honestly can't remember anything! Well we went to mall after school lol. Got friendship bracelets omg bffl gois x0x0x Thursday after school went to hockey practices thing with Suaima. Got so tired omg and it was blazing hot!

Last weekend on Saturday I went to meet kim nana for like two hours lol. Ronnie's cafe is so good wow. Afterwards got dressed up and ready for CNY celebration with my family and family friends. It was rather fun! We booked practically the whole restaurant except two tables which there was few customers dining in, which includes three white people having fun watching us do some karaoke quizzes while drinking wine. I also wore heels at last! My black wedged heels from Farmers for $40 :D

Oh I also brought lipsticks that day from Farmers too hehe. 

The only photo I could find -_- there's more somewhere with other people... Anyways, here's me and Gabby! :D

Sunday I had to work since I swapped shifts for Saturday... And I made friends with Laura :D She's so nice and rather funny. 

Well now its third week of school loool. Yesterday (Monday), school was so dreadful. I could not concentrate and I was in a mood where I think I'm really stupid and going to fail everything. Today was much better but physics was just horrible. A horrible teacher who cannot teach her students properly and does not explain fully. No one in my class gets what she is talking about so we are all screwed (y).
After school today walked home with Suaima and Bram :D Suaima got the trials for tomorrow omg, all thanks to Bram!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So proud of her. GOOD LUCK GIRL MAN. Afterwards walked to his house in the heat omfg... what an exercise! Went home and went diary-ing with Suaima. Another exercise (y)

That is all. Goodbye.

P.S I got excellence in one of the unfamiliar paper from 2012 year 12 exam paper omg what a shock. I have to email my love to my previous English teacher <3 And Merit for the other one which I've only just finished paragraph 1. lol.

Song of the day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1JO-d5EkgDY <-- Theme song with Suaima.

Year12

What have I missed out...

Friday - After assembly, rushed to go town to tidy my eyebrows and brought a dress from valleygirl lol with fara

a bit big on me..

Saturday - work & Sunday 
Monday - First day of school and it was pretty shit. The weather was one main reason that made my day pretty frustrating ugh.
Tuesday - Slight improvement cause I like my physics class cause its fun with Nada <3
Wednesday - Went to eat dim sum as I was supposed to shout my dad and my sister. But just as we were about to pay ... I realized I had forgotten my wallet (y) Lol thanks sis! Went to town after some detour of going back home to get my wallet and doing a bit of laundry lol. Hanged out with my sister and did a bit of adventuring. Brought a pink red high waisted skirt (so nice) and red lacey top (nicenice) from ValleyGirl. Halved the price with my sister and brought this thin jumper from dotti hehe. I also brought "Cosmetic Warrior" from Lush which is this facial mask which is most suitable for people with oily skin and few breakouts! Rather expensive but hey, I was desperate! Had curry laksa from Malaysian mamak restaurant for dinner and i got to admit, it's the best curry laksa ever in NZ.

mine

My sister's

                                                                

Thursday - School was getting better until first period when I heard Nada's timetable changed and she's unfortunately not in any of my classes now. Got really pissed off at first like no joke. But now I'm just really really sad. Instead of being in the same classes with me she's in Farah's classes. I am even MORE sad. Stupid school for last minute changes ugh so unorganized far out! Went for a jog in the evening non stop run and it felt goooooooooooooood.
-> Tried the facial mask and the smell of it wasn't that great... contained garlic but surprisingly it doesn't have the smell of strong garlic!

Friday - School was average. Work after and farah and I bus to Botz and the bus was so full it was insanely packed omg. So we had to stand in the front showing our faces to people since the front of the bus is see through HAHAA idk why we were laughing but it was just to funny.

Stuff during previous summer holidays:

Owl decor for sema and dog for livvy

Hanging after work in town with min lee and sis :D!

Hanging with Fara - idk where the other photos are ugh

Shoes I got from town $30

Lamb on rice with salad and humus sauce and pita bread at Arabic restaurant with Nada. AMAZING STUFF OMFG.

Peach Nata with Nada in Momo Tea :3 YUM.

Asians and their fob namings. *facepalm*

The new skirt i got like last year dec.

Nada and I. I love you nada man.

Ice mango frapp + pearls with Nada at Momo Tea, amazing stuff

you might be wandering why there's so many photos of me... well there's heaps with Nada but she didn't let me copy it ;( slut.

I don't want to go to school

Wow, so A LOT happened. Hmm lets see. Last week on Thursday, I went to Waiwera Thermal Hot Pools with my family friend's daughters youth group called EPIC. It's really cool and the people are just so welcoming and friendly. It's like where people from North, South, East and West gather every Friday night at Central. It was nice although we went at like 5.15pm and only arrived past 6pm due to traffic. Anyways wowowow the slides are so COOL! There's one that's for one person only and its PITCH black slide. The other one is for two and its really long and lot's of turns. The other one was the coolest one which was a slide with no roof things and it goes STRAIGHT down. They also had movie pool and omg it was heated water so nice.

Hmm, on Friday I hung with mustafa before I had to go to work, brought nandos for us and hmm not bad!

Saturday I had to work for pretty much the whole day. This was the day where I made friends with this girl Robyn :D Went out to get some food from Moziac Kebab together aw :') on our second break went to get kiwiyo with her and Zoaheb. We slacked off but it was nice. Said hi to a stranger who was on break from his work at Kiwiyo amd thought it was my friend. Embarrassing, prob thought I was hitting on him.

Sunday I had to work as well to do stocktaking. So boring and the beeping of the bar code scanner makes you go crazy. Lol this was the day where I got closer to my friend Robyn mehe aw :')

Monday was Auckland Anniversary day (oh wow yay). My family and I went down to town so le sister and I decided to wander off on our own. Had a few adventures and wowowow we walked EVERYWHERE. Had dinner by ourselves at this Japanese Restaurant and wow it was so nice. Before that we had this Mango Fever Snow Ice omfg amazing thing (my shout lol) and brought some sushi for us too. Lol went to a lot of shops even the asian ones. Brought this nice looking flats shoes for $30, gay lady won't go any lower :'( cause apparently its so cheap as the original price used to be $99?

Tuesday I stayed at home.

Wednesday hung out with Nada and went to Botany and walked all the way to this arabic restaurant near Kanda Restaurant. Ordered lamb on rice with sweet chili and bbq sauce with salad and humus and pita bread for $13. Worth it. OMG AMAZING MUST GO AGAIN. Brought my graphic calculator on the way back to botany at warehouse stationery $95 :( Bus to get to momo tea had Peach Nata $6.50 omfg amazing. Walked all the way home in the horrible intense heat and got lost a bit. Slept over and it was fuuun.

Thursday morning, annoyed Nada to get up and rushed back home. Went to mustafa's for really short while then yeh watched Zero Black Thirty with Kim Na Na, not bad!

I'm so tired. I don't want to go to school tomorrow for assembly. Got to iron them unifroms ugh.

0mq l1v1nq lyf x0x

Sorry for that heading. I actually don't type like that at all, it pissees me off.
Lately I haven't been eating my dinner like properly haha, its been a week now. I eat like very little... One of the reason was cause of this specific problem and the other reason is that I just can't be bothered and don't really have the apatite to eat.

Um so Friday I worked, Saturday too and oh how could I not remember about Sunday? It was a long boring and dreadful day just scanning bar-codes continuously for stocktaking. So nothing much, this holiday have been about work and occasional productive hang out days. Better than staying at home I guess doing nothing.

Monday and Tuesday I stayed at home reading and doing a bit of vocabs (suddenly got into it for some reason). I've been reading this book called "The Blood Keeper" and I reckon it's a pretty well written book! I personally like it a lot actually but yeah give it a go and read it guys.

Today (Wednesday), oh jokes its like 12am now so I guess I'll consider it yesterday then! So yesterday, I hung out with my gangster as friend Nada hehe. It was fun and chilling. (y) Spend time at botany for a short while and went to this Malaysian Restaurant that my family and I went to and thought it was a pretty good and affordable restaurant in Meadowlands. She got Nasi Goreng and I got the classic, Char Kwey Teow hehe. It was nice, way better than luna tea. Omg anything is better than Luna Tea -_- Ye I shouted so hehe you're welcome babe. Went to Momo Tea for the first time and she got melon milk tea with pearls and I got this mango iced frappe with pearls. Boy was mine amazing and hers wasn't that ... great. Photos laterr

Went back to Botany and rushed to Cotton On to buy the skirts we wanted to get. Was going to get matching ones but she got plain black -_-. So hard to find a XS, so frustrating. Went to HP and chilled in her grandma's house. Brought bread from Countdown and chilled again. Watched half of this movie called "Bridesmaid" or something?

Walked back from around 7.30pm late in the evening and encountered this boy in his car. Oh..funny that hahaaaaah.

Song of the Day:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_0q5eAaG-38 <-- I love this song. It's really gangster but I like it so much.

busy as a bum. eyebrows styled x0

Man I used to always blog almost everyday last year cause I had no life. Now? IM LIVING IT. I've been so busy this holiday working and working. Spending too. lol.

I was working on Monday at Farmers. Um, Tuesday I was free for once! Just chilled at home :) Early Wednesday morning I caught the express bus to britomart with Min Lee and my sister for work at my mum's previous workplace in the city called Canterburry. Whole day I was counting manually (no scanner or anything). Had to lift heavy boxes from high up and drag them out from down low to count them ONE by ONE. During this busy day filled with numbers in my head I have encountered many dead insects/bugs. This includes moths, spiders (alive ones too), flies and some bug thing? Well that's a warehouse storage for you!
Oh and after that long day of counting clothing by head (Most clothing in a box I got was 96) my back was sore and just really dead after bending and reaching. But time flies by when you're counting!

Today (Thursday) I caught the bus from the same place with same people to the same location. Finished stocktaking at 11.45am! YAY. So we chilled in the city. Got bubble tea from Hulucat!

Papaya milk tea (mine), Taro (Min lee), Mango (sis)

Then went to Eastdayspa to thread my eyebrows for the very first time. It's the best and fanciest place I've ever been to!!!!!!!!!!!! It's just AMAZING and the smell and atmosphere is just fantastic. Highly recommended place in Auckland/NZ! Yeah eyebrows styled x0x0x0x It makes me look a bit different and more... nicer... lol and makes me feel better about myself. After loitering around the shops we decided to get some friendship jewelleries or whatever. Plan failed. Min Lee and I brought the same sunglasses hehe from Valleygirl. Went to this Asian place and brought 3 earrings (two cuffs and one black cross stud) for $10. Thanks to my sister I got another black cross stud so I could make it into a pair! Pictures later.
Had dinner at Saaki or something near Hulucat. Japanese owned and chefs. Pretty nice and rather cheap! $10 for my Hot spicy chicken udon in sweet chili sauce. Yum. Bused home and some dude was drinking beer secretly... wow so not obvious, the smell -_-

Spicy Chicken Udon!

Min Lee's curry something.... um................ s:

Sis's beef and onion teriyaki udon (YUM OMG)

Takoyaki! Abi be jealous, its better than night market's

Yes it's been a long and productive day. Busiest holiday I've ever been. I also go paid today and just wow. W-O-W. On Wednesday I was suppose to go to Waiwera Hot Pools with my workmates but sadly I couldn't cause my dad wanted me to work. THERE GOES MY BONDING TIME.

Well lately I've had some problems... I don't know how to solve it. It's partly or sort of mainly my fault. I just... I don't know. I can't just tell anyone cause they won't really understand... even if they did know, they wouldn't know the whole story. I omg I just.. its not good for my Hyperthyroidism and Graves Disease if I keep this up omg ugh.

-ugh. Have to buy my own graphic calculator too... there goes $100 :'(.

OH I GOT MY NCEA RESULTS TOO. Took me 20 minutes to get on and I see others taking more than 2 hours, lol. So I got Excellence endorsement overall <3 <3 <3