gaming addiction back on

ughhhhhh my gaming addiction is coming back omg someone save me! i was playing need for speed for like 3 hours straight, and im continuing later. ugh oh no :"( i hate itttttt, but its just so addictive! like to gain money, you have to be first so like at times i have to restart the match over and over again omfg i hate it when that happens, i get so frustrated and all lol i tooked my frustration on my sister when she came to touch me?? lol sorry didnt mean to...

kays anyways woke up at like 11, aw man been waking up late not good. used to wake up at 10 cause i couldnt sleep no more but ugh! its because ive beeen sleeping late almost every night now... at like 1am. not good not good. gotta get rid of my bad habits. but last night i was hanging with my bro and aw what bonding moment we had there<3 we were watching avatar the last air bender in his room with movie theater system :D! it was really cool. yeahh and it was just so good omfg, it was addictive. OMG ANOTHER ADDICTION.

yeah didnt do any studying at all omg. i told myself ima study full on for maths... but didnt even touched my maths book at all. omg :"( all i did was clean the windows and my table and eat and play need for speed and watch tv. ugh this is not good.

lately ive been getting some weird like feeling o.o idk why its just like 'neeee' sort of thing, LOL its prob just me. ive just been really spaced out lately... omg i need to clear my mind. im just doubting on something atm. just having some regrets in life. aiyo i swear im the most stupidest person on this planet.

okok tomorrow maybe i think ima go jogging down the beach.. i just gotta do some form of running and clear my head with some nice breeze while looking at the sunset, so niceee. ok tomorrow i will do some form of study. please oh please need for speed dont get it my way!! ima study for maths. stupid graphsss omg i hate how they give you loads of problem solving questions! like i jsut cant get it into my head? it doesnt make sense. i hate how they play with your mind its like ffffff- mindfarked. yeh.

agkajg;akls i still hate how i dont have any talents at all!!!!!!!! its really frustrating, you want something but you cantttt cause you're not good enough. its soooo saddening, lol i get depressed cause of that sometime AHA. what am i good at? i really dont know. im not smart academically..and i not that great at sports at all.. and er i cant play any musical instruments...not good at cooking or baking (too lazy too much work).. not even CLEANING.

sometimes when i feel like life sucks, i get that excited feeling of moving to australia. cause my family plans to move there after. like my sister is graduating soon like next year and shes gonna get a job there and then my bro. then my other sis. then me. so like we go there one by one. but like i want to study in aussie. if thats possible. but the fees is WAY too expensive so i might have to stay in this sheepland uni. i hope i get into auckland or else i might have to go otago! oh no nononono.

okay i think ima go watch avatar again if bro is in the mood~ yay!
byeeeee sayonara you kawai people! hehehe.

hehehe aw patrick you cute lil thaaang!

SONG OF THE DAY:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oFMsTwZgnsY
^quite a relaxing song. just heard it today from the Erin Simpsons show LOL. idk why i watch that. well i dont just happened that i was there when they were playing the song.