k, then ugh i slept then woke up again then slept then woke up at 10ish and holy crap my head was like spinning and it was sooo hot! and my throat hurts so much when i swallow!!! so i cried in pain to my dad, lol i was actually crying..... how cute am i?
yeah then woke up and ate noodle soup cause i was starving and i cried and yelled at my dad to cook it to me cause he wanted me to.... but then i said i was sick so i yelled, felt bad but my head was hurting alot.....sorry. then went to doctors and got medications and yeh. stuff happened with le dad and i feel so so so bad.. idk what to do. sometimes i get this feeling that everything is my fault, you know that feeling? well technically everything was my fault. ugh everything i do never makes anyone happy. im such a glue snot. get is? cause glue sticks to you forever and snots are like something disgusting and annoying? yeah that. sigh.
k, then i went home and i started sleeping on the floor sitting upright and leaning against my sister's bed while some japanese songs was playing in the background cause my sister was playing some music loooolsss, i ogtta say she's got good taste in music. not just in japanese music, but like english too! like omg shes got these band songs i loved but she didn't tell me who it was by so ugh -.- and she got other band songs like rock is well. nice nice nice. then yeaah at 3pm i started restarting my accounting internal due on Monday!!! and i feel so bad and i have to do it. and i restarted EVERYTHING, as in EVEEERRYTHING ugh, long story but so stupid. but yay im up to the part where i have to explain and compare. but i really cant be bothered. i doubt ima get it done by tonight. i also have to start researching for my science internal report on GM Food! I hope i do well. one smaller step closer to becoming a doctor :)
want to know my reasons? i dont want to become a doctor just cause of its well paying job (well sort of not really) cause i the fact that im helping others in need and seeing them get better you know? i want to see people nice and healthy. And you know how doctors are well respected and look up to? well thats what i want. to be able to be respected to and be able to look up to among others cause well i know im rather slow-minded and all... i dont really get looked upon much, everyone's reactions towards me are "oh just her". && no one looks up to me instead they look down on me, you know? Not that i mind people teasing me or mocking me about how stupid i am, but i just want to have respect and looked upon for once lols, that makes me determineeeeee. another reason is that some doctors in this world aren't great. they dont put patients first, instead they put themselves first. one example was my mother who was diagnosed with leukemia. she had to get a bone marrow transplant done but she had to be in a waiting list. like helloooooo if you really do care about her you should try get her one! Well, seriously they doctors didn't do much for my mother besides giving her chemotherapy and blood transplant and all. -.- idk just sstuff. the food could improve too! lools.&& also i enjoyyyy science-cy stuff. i really really hate economics and business crap, like its so boring! i dont mind accounting but i rather have a job something related to science. && also none of my families are really doing anything with science doctor related, so i could be thee first! :))
okay my head is hurting so much again. shouldnt be eating antibiotics yet. i hope it heeals soon before my sci report internal! :(
selamatt malam you all
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